Text / He Shuting
When I was a senior year, I really nearly threw myself into a piece of rusty iron. Sleep and chat in the class to see cartoons and snacks, followed by the boys yelling at the back, suffocating the young female teacher with tears, and then smug and smug. It was a period of unbearable time. Like the colorful black hole, it looks amazing and its ghostly attraction draws you to the bottomless abyss without knowing it. As a result, he fell, and he fell, and it was even more sad that he knew he was in a downfall but could not change it. The power of custom was so great that it made me helpless, so I gave up my last struggle and hard work. Now think about it, it's just cowardice. It's just laziness. It's just a seemingly high-sounding reason for self-willingness. It's all self-deceiving.
But no one at the time pointed me to the tip of my nose and scolded me, saying that if you wanted to break the jar, you wanted to finish your life like this. Maybe they have given up on me. Sometimes I think. Then it was ridiculously disdainful, disdainful and self-righteous, free and easy – who was rare. Actually, there really should be someone at that time, like many people have experienced, pointing to my nose and poked my backbone and said, do you know what you are doing and you do not know what you want, It is not clear what tomorrow will be.
However, people who do not care about it will have their own bottom line, just as the deeper valleys will have their bottom. Everything was like a slide, laughing down gratuitously on the way, and finally fell heavily underneath, breaking his blood.
Maybe, when people are in pain, they will seriously reflect on their own mistakes. They always have to fall and learn how to walk around. This simple truth, I actually spent a whole year of youth time really understand. One year, 365 days, Mrs. Curie can be found radium, Einstein can be certified a year E = mc square, a year can make a baby learn to stumble into the embrace of his mother, a year can make a vigorous Love has come to an end. But this year, I only got that sentence. Fortunately, it is not a loss, nor is it too late.
In the second division, I chose the text. You can't imagine what kind of bad liberal arts class my middle school has. What is the concept of undergraduates on the line? When I am a university student and I am quite content to tell me that the class of Peking University Qinghua in their middle school has gone for dozens of times, I smiled lightly. My liberal arts class is a liberal arts class with three undergraduate students. It is ironic that all three are repeat students. I was determined to be resolute in everyone, or in desperation or in a satirical or pointless manner.
The Liberal Arts registration form has its own name. That was really the best I ever read in my life.
I just suddenly wake up and feel that I can't live that way forever. Afterwards, many people asked me what was going on. Maybe they wanted to hear a legendary prodigal son come back to me. The only explanation I could think of at that time was that I just thought that my life should not be like that. Hajime local past.
However, I still underestimated the impact that the past year had on me. For the first monthly exam, I took the 12th grade. Perhaps this is a sounding unsatisfactory result, but only conscience and reason is enough to remind me that it is a liberal arts class with three undergraduate students. If you can't leave all the people behind, what's the difference between 12 and 120? I still remember the girl who took the first test so far. Is an unseen girl, thin and small, with a pair of thick black eye glasses, crouching on the desk often figure awkward. This impression comes because all people can only see her lying on the table. She has always been the first person to leave in the class. I have always held a kind of inexplicable rejection and resistance to that kind of student. I always think that if you have something great, isn't it a dead study? If I study hard like you, it will be the first in the city. In fact, I was still dismissive of her until the test results came out. Then, I welcomed the most important class meeting in my life. I don’t know what kind of weight to use to thank the class teacher because if it’s not her seat, I’m not sure where I am today. At the class meeting, she said: “This performance is very illustrative of the problem. All the people who should be tested are well examined.” Then she glanced at me. I understand her subtext, which means that she belongs to me for no reason. In the group of people who are well tested. Strangely, I didn't blush. I don’t know if it’s a long time ago that I have unknowingly polished off my sensitive self-esteem, or whether I’m still undecided about her in the subconscious. I faced her with a blank expression. Her eyes just calmly swept me and continued: "I know some people think they are very smart and talented. They look down on those students who are serious about studying and working hard. They always think that people who are stupid are the first to fly is congenitally inadequate. But I want to say that you It's just weak! You just don't dare to try. You just don't dare to work hard like they did because you're afraid that you're harder than they are. If you're hard, you can't pass the first test. Do not try, just because there is a risk of failure, and you can not even afford this risk, because, in your heart, you are not sure…………”” She said what I had already thought When I got up, I confessed that I was completely left behind because of what she said. "You are just weak………". At that time, the feeling was thunderous and shocked the whole person. The only thing that echoed repeatedly in my mind was: "You are just weak." She was correct.
The kind of sudden awakening shock is indescribable in language, and I don't want to use words to express it. You can only imagine through the results, and only need to imagine the results. I wrote in the diary that night, try it. I don't insist on what I want. I just want to give it a try. Try hard and try hard to learn a month if it will work. At that time, I did not dare to promise any results to myself. I did not promise it. I just hold an idea and try it. Then ushered in the most dramatic month of my life. The reason why it is dramatic is because it's hard to imagine that Tang Yue is no longer arrogant, the Monkey King is no longer aggressive, and the Eight Commandments are no longer greedy. I can’t believe that it starts from 6 o’clock in the morning to 10 o’clock in the evening. Even if you do not move, you will not be able to sit in the position and you can be myself. Actually, it is not so simple. It really is not as simple as that. When I went to do it little by little, I discovered that it would be too difficult to change the habits formed in 365 days in a few days, and that in order to create a jaw-dropping miracle in a month, It's too hard. Habits become natural. Just like the saying goes, "Heart is like a plain and puts horses in a place where it is easy to put away," and it is easier said than done to recover it. Often sitting and sitting can not help, the heart began to impetuous, his eyes began to drift away, and almost a few times will give up. However, when I was at the most dangerous edge, I always pressed and told myself that I couldn't help myself. In fact, to put it plainly, there is a sentence: When you can't help it, you can't help it. I admit that I am a very arrogant person in my heart. I just don’t believe that I’m not as hard as I would be. I just don’t believe that when I really do something, I can’t do it. I just don’t believe what’s really in this world. impossible things. I Believe that nothing is impossible.
Then I ushered in the long-awaited midterm exam. I still remember the feeling after the exam. Holding the book on the way home, staring blankly at the busy people, do you really want to finish? Why is my heart empty? It was indeed the most special test of my life because it was related to my direction and choice of roads. It was too risky. How could I be at ease? In fact, the test results must have been guessed. I really did let all the people really staggered once. Yes, I took the first place and the city first.
You can never imagine how important that result is to me. When I knew the results, I was unusually calm. At that time, I realized that the impulse to galvanize and cry would only be calm. When that long-lost name appeared on the first line of the transcript, I silently said to myself: Remember, nothing in this world is impossible. Nothing is impossble.
Later, I never changed my attitude and method. In fact, all methods are plain and there is no way. Only one word: hard work.
I adhered to my method, which was not a method, and also adhered to my name on the transcript. Until the last exam before the college entrance examination, I was always the first. However, the real challenge has not yet begun. Even if I can firmly occupy the first place, even if I can give up the second place a few dozen points each time, I know that Peking University is still far away from me, far from seeing even in the dream. All the teachers are convinced that I will be the best liberal arts student ever in the school. In their concept, the best liberal arts student means that you can go up the hill and be lucky if you are. You can reach out and reach the threshold of Fudan and even the National People’s Congress. And I'm just Beijing University. I never talked to anyone about my willingness—if I could call it volunteer. I just want to save all my strength.
In the second semester of the third year, we moved into the newly completed teaching building. On the day of the relocation, there was a very loud argument in the corridor, and the sound of dragging the table to the bench was heard in the hallway. I skipped the window silently and embarked on the big platform outside the window frame on the second floor. Opposite the playground, the first snow is not melting, the air is cold, and the bare branches are straight to the sky. The snow-covered sun was shining through the lashes in my eyes. My eyes looked at the distant sky. I said a word and said only one sentence. Against the sky in the distance, I silently said in my heart: "Let's wait, I want you to witness a miracle." I know that there is indeed nothing impossible in this world.
I never knew that when the pressure was large enough, I could actually stimulate people's potential to that level. I was an extremely restless person, but during that time I was extremely patience and calm, and I was as eager as I was. In fact, many times I faced the brink of collapse. I have turned my entire history books back and forth over six times. When you put a book back six times, you know what it feels like. With tears on the back, I would almost certainly throw away the book if I could barely go back. However, when you can't help it, just give it a try. Perseverance is indeed the greatest quality in the world. The only way I had to rest during that time was to stand in the corridor to see the distant sky. Later I discovered that there was a big red line on the opposite building wall. It was the school that used to motivate students. I am not sure. But that sentence was the last day of my third year with me. The power of the will is the power that determines the success or failure. I use all my experiences and experiences to practice and prove this sentence: The power of the will is the power that determines the success or failure.
The whistling wind was swirling with the yellow sand of the sky. In the spring in the north, we were all covered in hair and rough skin. The alternation between death and jealousy is similar to that of the ruling party in the United States. The law makes people suspect that there may be two strange and magical hands. In an awkward manner, however, we ushered in awe and anticipation and sent away one model, two modes, and even N modes. Each nerve was indestructible by the ruthless reality. Whether it was used to the willows of the Willows Poetic, still accustomed to the graffiti painting. In this hurrying season, all the sensitive and slender are extravagantly dressed like Caesar's thick clothes, leaving countless hopes before numerous disappointments, smashing bones, and countless times of sensation falling under countless disappointments. Get bloody. Every person understands the insurmountable gap between ideals and reality more than yesterday. At the same time, he struggles harder than yesterday and tries to squeeze through that narrow monolith, even if he knows it is in vain.
– Will it be in vain?
When this cone-shaped question mark slammed at the door again and again when the nightmare was still, everyone was unable to withstand the panic and confusion of the flood, and forced them to bury it in their books, buried it in the papers and buried them. Into the airless black cricket – for only one day break into a butterfly. Green eyes, swollen eyelids, dry fingers, anxious to get blisters. In the spring, I didn't know whether the popular blue-green or silver-blue ash. The small mirror was quietly put away, because I couldn't bear to see my sullen face and my dim eyes, because I was afraid that anything would be opened up in Wang Yang's carefree face in a long-awaited face – God, I am a girl.
God does not speak. Silent smile. Smile and tell me, you, willingly. Yes. I am willing that I do not regret the original intention of my own choice of this road is flat or rugged, I have to go. I want to go. I will go on.
Then all the cries were swallowed and all the pride was taken away. I am like a February cattle, walking silently and silently. When hard work was replaced by desperation, Shangri-La had already turned into a long-lasting and embarrassing dream, and all the hard work was just to make this dream no longer “beautiful and beautiful.” .
When I entered the examination room, I was calm. “I can't be the best if I don’t do anything. I can't regret it.” In fact, I never thought I would be admitted to a school outside Beijing University. This is not so much self-confidence as it is a sense of foreboding. I just thought that even if Beijing University only hires one place, why can't it be me? Nothing in this world is really impossible.
After walking on the way home after the exam, watching the crowd still rush, my heart is still empty. The eyes are blurred due to tears and fog, and things in the field of vision are more clear. This is scientifically explained. I would rather believe it because all true perceptions must be done with tears and pain. Yes, we always have to learn to give up something to get something else. If the thing you care about is worth the effort to pay for it, then all the renunciations are just the pain of giving birth. Always make a choice, the butterfly's life is so short because its wings are so delicate. Sometimes, giving up is only for real gain. The key is to see exactly what you want and how much you are willing to pay for what you want. God is equal to everyone.
In fact I miss that period of time and I will always appreciate it. Not only because I completed my transition and sharp changes during that period of time, but also because everything at that time was deeply rooted in the personality that I was in a plastic period, and I became the eternal wealth of this life. That is really how much money can't be bought. There will be no period in life that is as monopolized as it was then, simply, resolutely, almost stubbornly, full of faith and hope, inextricably bound and isolated from the world, for a purpose of determination. struggle. When you were in a laid-back afternoon some years later, you recalled your past efforts and renunciations. Once you had the patience and endurance. Once you were persistent and devoted. Ever sweat and tears, what kind of happiness and joy would it be? A kind of comfort and respect – respect yourself. Yes, in the process, please allow me to repeat and do what is important, that is you. I thank my parents for thanking the teachers for thanking the classmates and for the gratitude of the friends for all the people who care about me for helping me, but I am most grateful for myself. Nothing is impossible. This is what I got in a bit of hard work and effort. And I also believe that this will also be something that will benefit me for the rest of my life. Here, I gave everyone my most faithful sentence: Nothing is impossible.