Fang Yunfan said that when he first saw me, I was surrounded by a group of people, but no one picked up me. So he crossed the crowd and took me into his arms. I smiled at him with a snot. He said that from that moment on, he just thought of my name, laughing, and he hoped that I would laugh all my life.
Fang Yunfan is an orphan and I, an abandoned baby with congenital heart disease. When we met, he was 28, and I just came to this world.
I have lived with Fang Yunfan for 20 years. In these 20 years, we are fathers and daughters and even friends. When I was young, Fang Yunfan liked to hold me in my arms and use his beard to smash me. He used his arm as a pillow, wrapped me in his arms, patted gently, and groaned. We have been sleeping this way until I was 13 years old.
That was one morning when I was 13 years old. I woke up earlier than Fang Yunfan. When I went to the toilet, I found myself running a lot of blood. I cried and ran into the bedroom and pushed Fang Yunfan. He rubbed his eyes and looked at me with tears. He immediately put me into his arms and asked me what happened. I hugged Fang Yunfan's neck with both hands and buried his face in his arms. I said: Fang Yunfan, I'm dying. I'm bleeding a lot. Fang Yunfan quickly saw the clues. His brow twisted together. Every time, I was sick. I didn't eat and I was not obedient. He just twisted his eyebrows like it was trying to twist his eyebrows.
Fang Yunfan put me in the bed and covered the quilt. He wore the cocks and wore pajamas and slippers to go out. When he returned he brought back the next woman called Snow. Snow is a woman who has had relatives with Fang Yunfan. She likes Fang Yunfan, but after all, the years gone by and Fang Yunfan’s indifference, she was married six months ago.
I lay in bed and Fang Yunfan helped me feed me hot soup. He blew his hair and tried to test the temperature with his lips. His body has a sweet scent that always gives me attachment. Fang Yunfan, you look so good, and it smells so good. If a woman more beautiful than snow likes you, will you leave me to marry her? Fang Yunfan smiled. His eyelashes trembled gently: silly girl, who would have my laugh smiling beautifully?
Since that day, Fang Yunfan has started to arrange a separate room for me. Purple curtains, white wooden beds, and my green pajamas are also neatly laid there. No matter how I cry, Fang Yunfan stopped me from going to his room to sleep. Without his arms and arms, I couldn't sleep well and I often wake up at night. I slipped into his bedroom with bare feet, got into bed and arched into his arms. Fang Yunfan always sighs with helplessness, warms my feet with both hands, waits for me to be accustomed to sleep, will send me back to own room again.
When I was 18, Fang Yunfan was 46. I thought it was time to find a woman for him.
Fang Yunfan stood on the balcony to dry clothes, his slender fingers gently smoothing the folds on my skirt. When buying that skirt, Fang Yunfan did not agree with life and death. He said that it was too short. I don't walk in the store with my skirt. I lowered my head and shed tears. So he broke down and wiped tears for me: What should I do with you? Well, we laugh what we like and buy what we like.
When the sun shines on Fang Yunfan's body, he has a good-looking Phnom Penh. I said, Fang Yunfan, you get married. His hands were in the air, and after a long time he turned around: smiled. You grow up, and you understand. So, I understand, Fang Yunfan's heart is still eager to have a woman who lives with him.
Fang Yunfan brings Yan back home after a few days. Yan is a woman who looks very virtuous. She will laugh with dimples and lovely teeth. I know Fang Yunfan likes her because I have never seen him blink before anyone's face. Yan has a little bit of jealousy and likes to be spotless at home. She can cook very much. Fang Yunfan always eats devoured food, and the food he eats is always slow and slow.
Yan began to frequently enter the house of Fang Yunfan and I. Her hands began to weave a camel sweater. I secretly laughed at her rusticity. However, when she showed me the knitted sweater, I stayed. It was a good-looking sweater. I can imagine how it fits with Fang Yunfan. Yan Manhuai looked forward to asking me how, my heart began to faintly sour, how could a woman look so good and would do so much? I said with a disdain: Do you not know that he hates this color? Yan Yan, disappointed and walked away.
When I was reading the novel, Yan sat next to me. Her hands began to weave a royal blue sweater. She said: How do you never call Yunfan? He is 100 times better than you are to your own daughter. When I got married with Yunfan, you called his father and called my mother. Isn't this happy?
Yunfan? She called him Yunfan! The two words completely hurt me. I lived with him for more than ten years. However, I only called him Fang Yunfan. So, I was very evil and said to Yan: You really think of yourself as the hostess here, ah, not soaking in urine, according to Fang Yunfan's casual play with the woman, not even miss!
I feel hot in the face, she actually hit me? ! In the more than ten years he lived with Fang Yunfan, even if I tossed his shirts full of soy sauce, folded papers that he had red-eyed into paper planes, or bought clothing for which he was paid for one month, he stole his money. People eat, he never hit me. So I resembled a shrew who fell against Yan. She was caught off guard and her face went bloody. I heard Fang Yunfan shouting: Yan Yan, what happened to you? Yan Yan? My tears fell out of my guard. He called her a face. Even if we scuffled together, did he only care about her? What about me? Like many stories, will Fang Yunfan be abandoned? I grew up under his petting, I will not wash and cook, how to live?
I collapsed heavily on the ground. I began to hate Fang Yunfan for the first time. I hated him for taking care of me so well and so healthy. So I just pretended to faint. I heard Fang Yunfan yelling anxiously: laughing and having a heart attack.
In the hospital, I saw Fang Yunfan crying for the first time. He cried and asked the doctor to save me and give him his heart. I fell into a guilty and heartache that I could not extricate from. Fang Yunfan, who I care about most, how could I make him so painful and sad.
I lay in Fang Yunfan's arms and looked up at his quivering eyelashes and slightly curled lips. He smiled at me and asked me if I was hungry or hungry. However, why do people always take him away from me? Yan came to see me. Her pale face was still swollen with scars I had scratched. She stood so pitifully, I was tired of turning and not looking.
Fang Yunfan stood there coldly and reached out to her: Give me the key to our house and don't come later. Yan cried and ran away, but I also saw the flash of sadness in Fang Yunfan's eyes. I took his hand: Fang Yunfan, don't be sad because I will double your compensation! I will be 100 times better than Yan, no, it is a thousand times. Then I can take care of you. Fang Yunfan's face was full of surprises and avoidance, but I stared profusely at his face. He gently touched my head: My smile is a princess. How can I do this?
When I was 19 years old, I left Fang Yunfan to go to university for the first time.
I didn't get used to the quilt that I used to sleep every day without the smell of sunlight. I didn't know how to smooth out the folds on my dress coat. I couldn't swallow the food in the canteen full of soy sauce and peppercorns. Then, on a Sunday, I was shocked and frightened when I stood in front of Fang Yunfan. I fumbled into his arms and cried with great grievance: Fang Yunfan, you know I don't like soy sauce and peppercorns. I don't want to use a dirty public washing machine.
Fang Yunfan started to frequently send me good food and change clothes. I don't know how he could maintain the temperature of the food after bumping the bus for two hours. I don't know how he ironed those wrinkles a little bit. clothes. I took him to his arm to visit the campus. He smiled and said he was the best girl in the school. Yes, when other girls were still visiting the night market at Taobao, my Fang Yunfan had started to read fashion magazines and only bought me clothes from the shopping mall.
We met Han who was visiting the basketball court. He was my classmate and he was an excellent student president. He ran up with a basketball. I introduced him to Fang Yunfan. He held out his hand and said: Uncle is good. I am a laughing student. I don't like Korea, not at all. Even in the eyes of others, he is excellent, handsome, and sunny. However, no one can match my Fang Yunfan.
Fang Yunfan said: Smile, I am not old? Look at the boys, how young they are. I seem to understand, but it seems even more confused, Fang Yunfan, he is 28 years older than me, this distance, what do I want to fill? So I was angry and said: What are the young boys and girls? They are all hairy boys. They don't understand anything. They see beautiful girls who chase after them. They chase after two days without results. I don't care about these people.
When I was 20 years old, Fang Yunfan was 48.
I wanted to give him a surprise birthday, so I bought a gift, a cake, and killed the light at home waiting for him. However, Fang Yunfan did not come back all night. My anger began to become a little wronged until I fell asleep on the sofa. I was awakened by the hurried ringing of the phone, the hospital, Fang Yunfan, he was hospitalized, and advanced liver cancer. I know that my world is falling at this moment.
Fang Yunfan began to lose a little bit of weight. His slender white fingers could clearly see the skeleton. The warm embrace I used to attach to was so stiff. I know Fang Yunfan will leave me. Maybe he already knows it. He said: Smiling, I signed an organ donation agreement. After I died, I gave you my heart, so that you will be healthy for all your life. I smiled and nodded, but without the days of Fang Yunfan, why did I continue.
After all, Fang Yunfan still gave up treatment. I did not block it because I knew where I would go wherever Fang Yunfan went. I put Fang Yunfan in my arms, just like he held me when I was a child. His body exudes the smell of alcohol and powder. The good-smelling Fang Yunfan of mine has disappeared. He began to grow white hair, like an unsuspecting thief, stealing his youth and life. My lips gently fell on Fang Yunfan's hair. I could clearly feel his trembling. I said Fang Yunfan, don't be afraid. We are one and you will never be alone. His tears were so cold and icy that they fell in my hand and instantly frozen all my hopes and lives.
In the early spring, it was still very cold. Fang Yunfan stood on the balcony to dry clothes. He said: Girl, what would I like to eat today? It seems that everything has never happened before. I lay in his arms, and he glared softly, patted me, and choked off his childhood tunes. Then gradually, his hand broke away from my shoulder. I looked at his eyes, which gradually faded, and finally broke down. He wanted to raise his hand and wiped away my tears, but it was already unable to do anything: Shantou, I was leaving. The doctor said that our blood type matches. After that, you can live happily with a healthy heart. He said he was trying hard to give me a smile.
Fang Yunfan will never know that it is just a lie that I asked the doctor to make up for me. Our blood type is completely different.
His eyes gradually closed, how? Does Fang Yunfan leave me like this? I leaned over and gently kissed his lips. I asked: Fang Yunfan, did you love me? Even if it's just a little, it's just a moment. He suddenly opened his eyes, his eyes are endless light and infatuation: love … … I think I should be satisfied. However, Fang Yunfan said slowly: Where does the father not love his daughter……
The funeral company soon took up Fang Yunfan's funeral. I don't know. He was even ready for this before he was born. I was wearing a wrinkled skirt and lying in Fang Yunfan’s quilt. For the first time in 20 years, I was alone in this room. It also echoed Fang Yunfan's hearty laughter and good smell.
Han came on the second day. He took several large bags of vegetables and tied Fang Yunfan's apron to cook in the kitchen. Obviously, he is not good at it. He fed me a little to eat the unpalatable food. I stared at his hand and said, "Your hands are really nice, like Yunfan." Han took a little care of my life and took a year off with me. Yunfan, is this the life that you arranged for me? Then I will accept it.
I was lying in Fang Yunfan’s room for several days and found a photo in his closet. It was when I went to school with Fang Yunfan. When Fang Yunfan was tired, why did I? Did not find it? On the opposite side of the photo, I saw a familiar handwriting. It was Fang Yunfan's – I haven't born a monk, and I have an old king. Even if you hate to be born, you will be happy every day.
I took Han to Fang Yunfan's cemetery: We got married, but the only request was for me to be old and dead and to be buried here. Han took me into his arms and said softly: OK, I promise you. So, I ran towards Fang Yunfan’s gravestone and smiled wickedly: Yunfan, you see, you raised me so well, so beautiful, so I can do whatever I want, and you wait for me quietly, ah, etc. For me………
Postscript — Today I went to the cemetery, I think I finally completed the last laugh of Fang Xiaoxiao, I can never forget that she clung to my collar: Han Qi, I give you all the money, You must complete the things that you promised me and buried me with Yunfan. I originally thought that I could take care of her instead of Fang Yunfan. However, in the second year after Fang Yunfan’s death, she died of heart attack due to excessive depression. She is the follower Fang Yunfan came to this world, and now, with him left …