Dad, don't cry
Listening to her mother, she was very fierce when she was born. It was like having a child who had just given birth, but he was like him. Later, Mom did not tell her that she did not ask. She always felt that Dad was an upright man, a hero of hers, and even if it was tears, it should be a happy little flower blooming.
She was very reluctant when she was a child. Her mother said that her temperament is like a father.
She did not want to believe at all, because in that time, my mother was one of the most beautiful women in the village, but she had not been able to inherit her genes even for a little bit of beauty. Every time the elders in the village walked past her, they didn’t forget to go back and add a sentence. This tooth was with her dad.
Nonsense, you only follow her dad! She often replied with such dissatisfaction that she would always invite the laughter of adults. The laughter was very clear, as if it could go through every small and large alley in the village and even fly to the clouds on the horizon. Otherwise, every time I looked up at the sky, why did she see Dad’s shadow? What?
She really missed him. In his childhood memories, he often ran east and west, down south and northeast, like an erratic Feihong. Only when the year is off, can she see the unshaven dad, and when he confronts her, he will always have only a blank face. He will never buy anything delicious or fun for her. Compared to other uncles, he seemed a bit indifferent. However, this does not diminish her thoughts for him. My mother said that Dad is an honest and honest cropper.
The days of those who live in mud live fast, and she can play swiftly with one person. At the age of five, her mother brought her a little angel. From then on, she was finally accompanied. That year, my sister was born in a cold late autumn, and the sun sets, and the sky is gradually gloomy. She sat alone on the small stone bench in front of the gate and listened to the heart-broken buzz that came out of the room. She was suddenly scared.
At that time, she did not understand what was distressed.
She was forced into the house by her sister. When she was standing on the bandits in fright, there was a baby girl with her eyes closed. She was very beautiful and her eyebrows were like a mother. She couldn't help but laugh, and she was brave enough to move forward and touch her face. Mom smiled weakly at her, and it was a strange smile because there was a lot of tears in the smile.
She suddenly jumped to the ground, and she quietly searched for her father. On the low wall behind the house, she heard him cry. He cried so helplessly, desolate, sad, and dragged the entire lonely night like a blade. She suddenly panicked and hurried back to the house. She said a lot of things to the Daiyu incoherently. She didn't know why the Otsuka appeared to be unusually calm. She just squatted down and panicked. She embraced herself in her arms and held it in her arms so tightly.
That night, she was suddenly awakened by the voice of Daddy's yelling and screaming, and she started crying and crying. In the embarrassment, he saw his father who had lost control of his emotions slap his mother and helplessly lay in bed and shed tears. She jerked like a furious calf and stared at him with a horrified look, and he flopped on her ass.
Early the next morning, she met distant relatives rushing in. She did not know the two people. She only watched them want to force her newborn sister. In this way, she rushed forward with tears and guarded her mother’s body. She saw her mother desperately holding her sister and cried a hoarse voice. She looked at Daddy’s face and she immediately accused her mother of being for no reason at all. Hey. In the end, the accomplice only shook his head helplessly and left with a loss of face.
For a moment, her heart hurt inexplicably, and her tears stopped flowing. She also couldn’t tell exactly why. In short, she only knew that crying was the most useless method in the world because it could not solve any problems.
Six months later, the family suddenly entered a big brother who was two years old. She did not know him. When Dad took his hand and looked happily in front of her, he told her with an order, and from then on, he was your brother. She glanced at him awkwardly and did not speak.
If it weren’t for the half-moon cake, she still didn’t know the real reason for her father’s crying. Although, she would rather not know it for the rest of her life.
In this way, the stranger’s brother stayed at home for more than half a month. In his day, every meal must have meat, and the family’s soil eggs should be eaten by him in the poor village of the poor mountains. He actually has pocket money. On that day, my mother picked up the moon cake left over from the Mid-Autumn Festival from the cupboard and divided it into two. Half gave him and half gave her. She did not expect that her brother would go and find Dad’s complaint. When her dad approached her impetuously, half of her moon cakes remained untouched. Her father grabbed the moon cakes from the past and squatted. When she slaps, she turns to her brother and says with joy, she can not eat or eat enough to buy it.
She suddenly angered, she asked her father loudly, why did you give him good?
At this time, Dad said something to keep her in mind for life because he was a boy! After listening to this sentence, she instantly understood everything.
That year, she was only 6 years old. The stranger's brother soon left, and where he had gone, she didn't know or wanted to intervene. It was just the day he left. Dad cried hard and his mother looked with joy. She suddenly felt that since Gaoma Da's dad sobbed his nose, he let him cry, because that slap had already discounted her youthful wings, and even interrupted all her fantasy of a father. Since then, she has no hero in her heart!
Her fierce competition continued until she graduated from high school. She was reluctant. She was rebellious. She was titling against him. The pair was for twelve years. She has never been a gold medalist in her academic performance. She is expected to do so. She has not lived up to her good years. Her life has been ruined by her own years. She does not understand it. Will owe anyone.
When the college entrance examination filled in volunteerism, she randomly chose a school and randomly chose a major. Dad said to her angrily that you will regret it. She just glanced at him extremely contemptuously, then answered him with a word, shouldn't the regretful person be yourself? I was born not a boy and I didn’t need you to worry about me.
She watched Dad shivering and raised her big hand. She even shook her lips slightly. She still barely raised her head and said to him loudly. From childhood to age, did you get used to playing me? Why can't you go now? Are you playing?
Dad didn't speak, but only squatted down, and fell on the ground as soon as the center of gravity was unstable. She reached out subconsciously, but she couldn't help but see the tears in his face. Horizontally, he coldly recovered his own hand. You cry, do you owe me tears for 12 years? Nowadays, I rely on eye drops every day. All of this is what you owe me, she thought.
At that moment, she finally realized the distressed feeling, but she still couldn't be certain. The pain came from where.
She hurriedly packed her bags, and went alone to his city thousands of miles away, with only the money to buy a train ticket. Mother can not bear to heart, sister also tears to keep her, why do you so stubborn? She replied that I will pay him back a lot of expenses for 18 years. You can rest assured that I will make my own tuition fees, I will make my own living expenses, and my life will earn. You don't need to worry about it.
The first time I stepped on a green car that galloped away, for the first time she listened to a dialect she was not accustomed to. She only looked at the train, and her heart was twitching. She really wanted to cry eagerly and eagerly, wanting to vent her dignity, but her lacrimal gland had already dried up, like her extremely hard heart valve, cold as iron. She picks up her luggage like a man and she has to walk out of the train station and go out without returning money. What kind of rejection is this and what kind of hate is it?
Her college life was like a book of books that seemed to be uncomfortable. In order to regain her own chess game that was lost in the college entrance examination, she studied hard day and night, and used her time to work. In four years, she Really did not get a penny from home, but never stepped into his home.
After graduating, she also entered her ideal unit as she wished. She could easily go to work and take a considerable salary. However, her heart is always empty, and she has had two ephemeral love affair, but they have not been able to get rid of the end of illness. When every star and moon is falling, she always intentionally or unintentionally follows the Big Dipper. After a dazed follow-up, is it still home? she does not know.
At the age of 26, she finally talked about a vigorous love. She had completely turned herself over and even included her own bank card. However, the man who had promised her time had changed her mind at night. Looking at her again looked like a stranger.
He said that a man filled with hatred is unworthy of holy love.
She smiled faintly and could not say a word. Returning to the temporarily rented room, she got a mirror and looked back and forth repeatedly. The people in the mirror were pale and embarrassed. His eyes were empty and empty. She packed her bags swiftly, just as when she left home for the first time. She was already penniless and her rent owed for a month. The landlord ridiculed her with ridicule. The world is away from you poorly.
She had no way to retreat. The first time she shook her hands and dialed her father's phone number, she only said one sentence and I wanted to go home.
Come back, the door is not closed, and when Dad sobbed, he hurriedly hung up. What surprised her was that it took more than ten hours to drive. Dad only took ten minutes. When her father appeared face to face with sweat, she couldn't wait until 20 years of tears.
Dad, I hate you, she cried.
You don't blame you, Dad responded with tears.
You hate him, but he does not owe you, and that changed heart suddenly came from behind his father.
Those old things are all the same, and at that age, they only need to touch the ground in such a gentle manner, and they just shatter the ground with just one touch.
Dad, I'm sorry, she hugs her father tightly. Since then, his two pan-frost creams have grown taller and taller. She is unaware.
Shantou, Dad was wrong. Dad wiped the tears of her eyes with rough hands.
Dad, don't cry, you see, am I not alive? She said, but still squeezed a smile.
Don’t cry, dad, you see, am I not a ready-made son? He said, Fu Chou tightly embraced the father and daughter, she looked at him gratefully, just like watching a hero of a lot of attention.
At night, my sister sent a text message thousands of miles away. My sister told her that you didn't know that Dad was always guilty. In fact, from the moment you left home, he has been silently following you.
She silently looked at the text message, his face did not reveal the discovery of a big secret surprise. In fact, she always knew that in that year, the flickering pipe on the train of green leather, then the inferior smell of smoke, so familiar, how could she not know it?
The highlight of this scene is to fill the gap in her heart that has been stuck for 20 years. Yes, you have been silently following behind me, Dad.