If I left him with selfishness, when I hit the road, wouldn't I have to be so scared?
When we are young, we often do not understand what love is. When I was young, I thought that love could surpass everything. At that time I did not understand that another force in the world, called destiny, could only be loved and cannot be changed. When I was in the empty bathroom of the school, I sang: "I love you more than I can say!" I didn't know that such a story would happen to me one day. The first time I saw him was in a bloody occasion. I was a senior one that year.
You are always the best for me.
Because Lien-Tsing-Hyun has never let me down, nor has I questioned me once. I haven't even spoken to me once.
I always compare you with other people. Every time I'm particularly disappointed. Maybe, it's because I'm used to you for my love because no one wins your waywardness.
I want to leave a message for you because I missed you. Ye Feng said: "If I can not be overwhelmed by you, then there will be no me. Who will bear your lawlessness?" I once naively asked where Ye Feng was going. He told me that people always have a day to die.
What should the prince do? I no longer want to forget you, I want to leave, go far away, you have to forget the Prince ink, and then miss my scene, then how good it is!
Every word of yours goes to my heart. In fact, Ye Feng's right. You can't care too much for anything. It only hurts you. But fortunately, you have always been a very strong girl. You can face it and solve it independently. You can learn it or your feelings. You can handle it properly. Sometimes I feel that you are particularly concerned and care about everyone. Although you are self-willed and have temperament, but you also have a very warm heart. Especially considerate people are the intimate and love that all men need. This is the only love that no one can give.
On a rainy day, I was alone carrying a schoolbag, holding a warm umbrella, walking in the empty streets, and I became very quiet around. After a long alley, at the end of which I heard a noisy noise, I couldn't help but hide in a corner and watch it with curiosity. Oh! A large group bullied a person. This interesting thing made me see. At that time, I was gloating and praised for their actions. A large group of people bully a person, there are two possibilities: First, he is too hilarious; second, he may be too good. Well, intuition told me that my company is the second possibility. When I looked at his face clearly, there was a trace of helplessness in the ferocious eyes, a tall figure, and a trace of blood in the corners of his mouth, but he still had to fight with them. The men shouted in their mouths, and I wanted to help him. The inexplicable courage quickly ran out and cried loudly: "You don't hurt him!" "You beat me!" Later… I gave him later Pulling it from the ground, he hugged me and said to me in a tone of tone: "You didn't see anything." That year, I was 16 years old.
"I like you the most, even Zhenti"
"Like a bear like spring."
"Spring Bear?" He raised his face again. "What spring bear?"
"In the field of spring, when you are walking alone, you come across a lovely bear. Your hair is like velvet, and your eyes are bulging. It says to you, hello, miss, play with me. Then, you and the bears are huddled down along the clover-covered hillside, playing for a whole day. Don't you say good?”
"I just like you so much."
– 2011 (summer)
I always cry for him, and from the moment I saw him he cried for him. Once I heard a saying, the reason why tears are salty is because their raw material is blood, which is processed from the lacrimal gland, and takes the salt from the blood and turns away from the eyelids. I think: probably in the past life, owed him, or never owed before in the past, wish him to come to the world and return it.
"Lian Zhenhao, you said to me today, what's the name of the girl in your front row, is it beautiful?"
"I didn't talk to her, but I'm sure I like you."
"What about the girls in the back row? You still talked to her on that day! Hey, don't think I don't know. I know all your thoughts."
"The trash can is behind!"
"Oh, it turned out that you haven't scored well and you sit in the last row."
"Stupid, with excellent grades behind
"Is it? There was yesterday…the day before yesterday…"
He hugs me helplessly, said to me: "And you do not frown, you are the most precious."
– 2011 (Winter)
He broke up with him for the first time. He wants to go to the college entrance examination. It seems that he is always busy. There are few opportunities to meet him. Even my birthday, I waited until dark from darkness, he did not give me a phone call, or a message until finally, I took a cell phone to sleep. He always complained that I was annoying and always said to me: "Don't you make a fuss?" I think maybe: He's tired of me. When I was young, I thought it was my only one, so my unreserved commitment was The only dignity of a girl.
Lost his pet, as if the entire world had nothing to do with me. When I was lying on the desk crying and falling asleep; When I was running in heavy rain; When I desperately cut my hands with a knife, hoping that he would be better for me because I bleed, Until now the wound Still clearly visible, he once asked me: "Is it painful?" I replied: "It will not hurt, because then the heart is cold." He looked at me and said: "But I feel sad."
In the dream, there was a phantom that said to me: Your body is in one place, but your heart is in another place. Under the expulsion of God, you never stop walking.
It turned out that everything has been doomed.
I recognized my life. It was a lifetime after all.
After you left, I left. I hope there will be no accident in this life.
I also hope to have a person, love me like life.
One month later, he received his information for the first time. The above wrote: "I missed you." After I saw this message, I immediately threw away my mobile phone. It was like a devil-like twist around me. Then I pulled out the calling card and cut it into two pieces with scissors. I didn't want to be with him this life. There is another intersection. He was looking for me for many days. I deliberately avoided him. Until one time, I went to the supermarket and met him across from him. He seemed to get awkward. It seemed to get a bit higher. It seemed to be a bit thinner. Perhaps it was because he hadn't seen him for a long time. He held it for a few seconds. After the clock immediately turned around, he ran over and took my hand and said, "Oh, listen to me, I…" I broke away from him and said without any expression: "Give me how far you are. How far back!” Later, I was running very far. He didn’t catch up. I ran and wept. I was afraid of tears in front of him, I was afraid of my heart and I was afraid that I wouldn’t look back and I hated him. Heart.
A few weeks later, when he heard from a friend that he wanted to apply for Shanghai Jiaotong University, he had absolutely no problem with the excellent results of his college entrance examination. But Shanghai is very far away from Sichuan. Perhaps, the distance between our hearts is also so far away. I said to my friend in a cold tone: "This man has nothing to do with me!"
When I saw him again, he came to my house downstairs waiting for me. At noon the sun was particularly strong. He stood under the tree and occasionally looked at my window. I looked at him, as long as a moment, I will cry, since I knew him, my tears will become particularly large. I struggled for an hour. I was still reluctant to suffer a little bit of injury. I opened the door and said to him, "What are you doing?" He just looked at me like that and didn't answer my words. I was angry again and I thought that I would not say a few good things to me at this time. I always leave him room and I will never let him feel bad. I turned to leave, but he said:
"What did you do? He just listened to me and forgave me?"
I said to him in anger, "I won't forgive you unless you give me your knees!"
"Is it this way?" Then you slowly crouch down.
"No!" I ran over to hold him and cried, "I don't want to!"
– 2012 (summer)
"I don't want to leave you. Can you choose Sichuan to go to college?"
"I don't listen. You will forget about me when you see beauty."
"Then you read Sichuan University, Southwest Jiaotong University is also very good!"
"Then will you come there?"
"Of course, where am I going?
"Well, wait a year for you."
Later, I broke my promise. I didn't read the university there, but he kept waiting for me. Until now I still complained why I didn't read the university there? Later, maybe I grew up a little bit, not love to stick with him, unlike other couples every day to know where he is and what he is doing, only need a QQ information, I know that he is safe, and never even worried about He will betray me because I believe him. This is the seventh year.
With a period of time, for a time to understand, there was a man, you use all crazy, love him as life, would like to have a person, let you put away the lead, with his heart to accompany him through time.
I have experienced so many things. Now, I seem to understand what happiness is: living in secluded seclusion, doing simple and useful good things to people, doing a really useful job, and finally taking a break and enjoying nature. Reading, listening to music, and loving people around me are my interpretations of happiness.
It turned out that to love a person, from the people to the heavens, is not allowed to own. Those moments that belonged to the beauty of life were not rare at the time, but when I looked back, I discovered that the most brilliant moment had passed. I never met anyone again and loved me as my life as he did.
I'm writing in the dark at the moment.
Room 1303, this number is the same as his new home. On the 13th floor, I never dared to look down. I was afraid of the place near the balcony. But at the moment, I seemed to see the ground and clearly saw his face. He was waving at me. Should I go? Perhaps this is my young life.
I always cry and always hurt myself. Do not even take medicine, stay up late … This kind of chronic suicide will make me pay for it sooner or later. Sometimes I really hate myself, what I can do to be worthy of the three words of my prince ink. I hope that I am special and cannot be like other people, so I always work hard to make myself better and then Disappointed me again and again. How does the name of Prince Okumoto stand in this world?
Every time I was wronged, I thought of Lien Chan. Even tears will shed in an instant. I once wrote Lian Zhenxi numerous times. Every time I say this is the last time I wrote it, but I wrote her every time. Even Zhen-Jun-Yi, this name that makes me sad, this life, perhaps, is unforgettable. It seems to enter my body and erode deeply into my heart, causing the inexplicable pain at the heart to feel an explosion at any time.
I said I missed you. I said I regret to give you up… When I tried to forget you again, I failed. Because even Zhenti, never let my Prince ink disappointed. Even your future has passed my agreement.
Lian Zhenxuan still teased me when I was jealous of him, comforted me when I was crying, and stayed with me when I was alone… I think, who would I like to live this time?
– 2015. 08. 25
Annie Baby: At the beginning of every man, there will be a cherry-like woman, falling in life, destined to defeat.
Yi Shu: Love is an extravagant thing. I will always remember him. When I was old, I stared at him in the sunshine, thanked him for the good memories, my first love, and lost love.
Zhang Xiaokai: If you love someone deeply, you will never be able to fall in love again. Maybe it's just for life.
Utada Hikaru: You are always gonna be the one, now and forever, I'll remember to love, you tought me now.
Iwai Shunji: If I was brave, the outcome is not the same. If you insist on that, memories will not be unusual, and in the end I still did not say, you still ignore. This is not the best outcome. We have already ignored it.
Later, I was sorting out previous books and carefully reading the notes I had written before. Those books were memories of my youth. Almost every directory is written with the words "about memory." Occasionally discovered a engineering mathematics, it seems never seen. Open the book and write it above:
My girl, wish you a safe and happy life!
Prince ink written
2016. 02. 14
“There was a person who loves me like life” mainly talked about juvenile feelings. In the past years, all will go past, looking up, bowing, leading up, destiny, and finally failing to make a difference, but in later days, I never met again. To a person, he loves me as his own life.